After a little hiatus from blogging I am BACK baby! I am now 6 weeks out from my show. I am in the nitty gritty of this prep now and shit is getting hard. My hormones are going a little crazy, I am more emotional than normal, I am tired all the time, and I am starting to miss little things like making dinner and not having to track every bite. But I am still just as motivated to kill this show as ever. But with that being said, I wanted to talk today about some of the hard shit that comes along with prep…from my point of view.
This last week has been a bit hard on me. I haven’t been too emotional about my progress so far but that all changed the past few days. I had my check in with my coach on Sunday and I was not feeling great. I felt bloated. I didn’t think I looked good. I didn’t even want to take my progress pictures because I knew I would not like the way I looked. I let my mind and my anxiety take over.
I even got to the point that I told my mom I wasn’t sure if I could keep going. Maybe I should just back out of the show. But then I thought to myself, when have I ever been one to quit just because something was hard. That is not me. So I went to the gym, watched some YouTube vlogs from competitors I admire, pulled my hat down low, and killed my workout. I even hit my newest PR for squats and managed to get 200lbs for 3 reps!
But things get hard. I struggle with my mental health (anxiety, depression, OCD). Prep can be lonely and it can and WILL be hard. You have to dig down to the deepest parts of yourself and really give it every last ounce of energy you have.
But I KNOW that it will be worth it. I know that when I walk up on that stage, all the doubts and sadness and struggles and hard times will seem like nothing. I know that I will be so proud of myself for the weeks and months of hard work I put into this.
Remember that you are not alone. You are strong. You CAN do this. Anything you want, you can achieve. I am about to make these last six weeks of prep my bitch!